march 18

No title today, nothing spectacular. Or rather not in the mood to blog about what happened today! I thought I just needed someone or now in this scenario something to let some of my thoughts out. So far, take it very straightforwardly, don't jump to conclusions. I feel damn messed up now. One thing at a time, it keeps piling up like how you pour water into a cup. (ah ha got this phrase from someone, my eng isn't that fantastic either) Those things don't really just centre around me, in fact they centre around other people and me, so I feel bad. I feel bad in the sense that because of these problems they might worry as well. I want to avoid them as much as possible, I want to leave it close my eyes and act like I didn't know anything, I want a break. But once again, I didn't, I can't and I won't. I decided it's just not the way to go by these problems and I don't think I ever will heck care them just like that. It's pretty annoying to be perfectly honest, then again, annoying in exchange for a better tomorrow. Why not? Sigh. Just sucks man. Feel so ARGH what on earth just happened! Like I've said I just needed to let it out a little. I didn't say I'll give up man.

It's hard to not give up and keep trying, but because to me you're that special, I tell myself hey why not, it's worth the effort.